beauty for ashes

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

♥ i fall into an ocean of you

i went mini shopping with daphne ytd. we went to causeway point, METRO. omggggg. so aunty-ish. lols. but hey! they sell cheap and not-too-bad clothing yo. hahaha. i eyed on this pair of shoes. yumyum. so gorgeous can. cant wait to get it (: (:
while searching for a gift, i came across this promotion - fcuk shirt + perfume = $29. OH MY TIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN ! so so so so so so so CHEAP! i so wanted to buy but the set for ladies are all sold out. i almost cried ! ): ): ):
oh well, get over it faith. get over it.

i just receive an email telling me that i am not selected for tennis ):
BOO. cried a million bucket of tears.

Monday, April 28, 2008

♥ it doesnt matter if my whole world fall apart as long as you stay.

MASS UPDATE !

wednesday
our FA + justin went to surprise jie eunice on her birthday (: (: we presented three songs with action&dance. she was moved to tears. cheerios ! i made a MOVIE for her using movie maker. special thanks to farhan for teaching and helping along the way. hee. i love my movie (: (: the day ended with chicken wings, cocktail, cakes, laughter and joy :D

thursday
i went home straight after school to pack my room. is squeaky clean, neat and tidy. i like. cant stand things in a mess. not when it comes in a package as well. you know, the constant nagging you get from that two woman. tsk.
i have come to a conclusion that instead of whining and complaining about how terrible my situation is or how horrible this certain someone is, i shall search deep within me. what is god trying to say ? what is he trying to show me ? what he wants me to do ?
& i was reminded once again that in every criticism there is a nugget of truth. so i shouldnt react or get angry whenever someone says things that doesnt please my ear. yesyes. afterall, i anit perfect to begin with. (:

friday
friday = computing
i have been getting C for the past two weeks. i was rather reluctant to attend school because of that. it flatten my ego completely and drive the motivation out of me. thank god i pick out the ' battle field of the mind ' by joyce mayer. upon reading the introduction, i decided i shall conqueror this module. i shall leave a very good impression on my teacher and shall score A for it (:
i went to sch with a WINNING ATTITUDE. but somehow, things just went haywire. i didnt understand a single thing about what we were suppose to do. okay, mayb i did. all i know was that we are suppose to develop the game the snake and ladder but i seriously have no idea how to go about doing it.
i tried and failed and i tried and failed. i felt so stressed, angry and .. dumb. the very nice rainer got me red bull, hoping that would help. haha. i went all high and crazy. i started uttering weird stuff and making funny noises. all my team members was shock. i didnt know what i was doing until i have done it. hahaha. anyw, i was sane. just that the sugar and stress cause me to be a little mad. anyhow, we had fun laughing and getting high. now i can fully understand why farhan behave in a certain way after red bull. hahaha.
btw, all that i have mentioned, beside the stress part, was positive (:

anyhow, allos parakletos is really the best teacher (: i manage to figure out the whole computing thing on my own. i was the first in class to do so without the help of the teacher (: cool or what ? i am an computer idiot for god sake ! and everyone had to call me genius for that day. hehehe.
& the best part is, i got A !!!
see the power of a positive mind? thank you papa :D

&& you are my hero

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went for prayer meeting and it was superup! i got my final answer and was more than elated. weeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaahoooooooooooo. everything was just oh so fabulous. love it (: prophetess dianne manusama is just the ang moh version of mummy serene can. beside her beauty, the way she preach, the verses she use and so on was just so mummy! hahaha.
the youth stayed over after prayer meeting. had supper treat from elder wee (: (: he really dote us like mad luhh. went back at midnight. played some games then light out at 2am. gosh. i have a hard time sleeping mannnnnnnnnnn. );

saturday
had a seminar at 9.30 conducted by prophetess dianne manusama. it was awesome (: the only thing i brought home was that.. i am determine to be the devil's worst nightmare (: (:
went home after the whole thing ended. rest rest rest. was super tired uh.
things just goes tumbling down and down and down and down .

sunday
had comb service and it was a blast. the worship was awesome. preaching was like WOAH. prophetess dianne manusama taught about forgiveness. gawd. during alter call, i just cried like mad. was crying in repentance and out of guilt. later on, she prayed for all of us and she told me i am going to rise up as a leader and that god is training me to be a preacher. woahhhhhhhhhhh. hahaha. happy happy (: (:
during yahyobabe, we watch the show stanley the stingbug. my heart was crying man. i realise i never put myself in stingbug's shoes, never pounder about how he/she feels, etc. we stink because we are afraid. afraid of being rejected, afriad of others knowing who you really are, etc. so we all had healing. woohoo. yahyobabe ended with hugs and 'iloveyou' (:
daniel and joyce ( new friends ), grace, daniela and i went to gid's place after yyb (: ate fish and chips before meeting clinton&kev and going up to gid's place. haha. grace, dan and me went into gid's room and started looking at his baby photos. gosh! HE WAS/IS SOOOOOOOO CUTE! i so wanted to keep one of his photo can. lols. i anticipate the day where by i can look thru my own children's one. (: (:
-beams.

Congratulation! you just finish reading this super long boring post. hahaha. i shall spare you by saying bye. (:

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Tuesday, April 22, 2008

♥ obessions stop from now on

i went over to daphne's place on saturday after membership class. went over to her granny's place for dinner. i was a little shy initially but they are all nice people :D we were sharing little secrets. grin grin. then we caught the show ' save the last dance ' . it wasnt a bad show, really enjoyed myself. then daphne's parents gave me a lift back home. so nice isnt it ? (:

i seriously am so blessed to have this bunch of girlfriends :D they were there when days are dark, they were there when i am close to tears, they were there to offer comfort and love. the things they do seriously just touched my heart. i love you
daphne : " i need to be near you in case you get bully. then how ? at least can protect you. "
:D

not forgetting those who are really concern about me and have been keeping me in their prayer. i really appreaciate it (: love you people (:
aunty serene, grace, michelle, natalie, jie eunice, jie minghui, justin, clinton
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

Friday, April 18, 2008

♥ it's too late to cry, too broken to move on

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE :D

rush all the way to esplanade to surprise her right after school (: i dno if you will see this, but really hope you like the small little gift and the surprise everyone planned. had foundue & off i go. had to come back and finish up my RJ ): and rest. yawnnnnnnnn.

a drop in the ocean
a change in the weather
i was praying that you and me might end up together
it's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
but i'm holding you closer than most
cause you are my heaven

♥ just pretend you love me a few more hours

(: (:
i am like learning computing now. so cool. i actually made my own 'game'. woah. is like the first time in my life ! feel so like genius man. totally. wahahahahha.
now, you people cant call me a computer idiot cause i know computing! HOHO~

farhan, the handsome dude is beside me while i am typing. and he insist on saying hi.
so here goes

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he is a really cool friend man. i just realise what he wrote about me in his blog.
"I made friends with my groupmates, and Faith was a stunner. Aside from her gorgeousness, her personality and her speaking skills were aweeesome. "

so i shall boast about him a little. HAHAHAA.
i am so proud to be his friend. REALLY. he is in a singing competition called stardust. &if you want the ticket to his finals, please contact me. LOLS. he just became my crazy pal cause we went mad doing action for this really beautiful song. HAHAH. had so much fun laughing at ourselves. :D

his record. please dont kill me. but you can sing really well ;D heh.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

♥ he called to say goodnight

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALFRED [:

from collecting money from the class, to ordering cake, to shopping for his birthday gift, to planning the surprise. although it was tiring, but i guess it was all worth while. hee. nth beats seeing someone smile and feeling so loved on his/her very special day right ? i love seeing those surprise and happy faces. (: (:

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

♥ mess messed messy

superman

the busy schedule and the lack of sleep has caused me to be extremely blur lately.
1. i went searching frantically for my towel only to realise it was in my hand 5mins later.
2. i went to brush my teeth after finishing brushing it cause i thot i have not.
3. i got two bruise on my hand and one on my leg. this explain the number of times i bump into sth this week.

gawd. how can i rest when so much are going on ? i really need a break. really. thou there was a turn in event, but is still ... not helping me to get better/ feel better. man. the path is getting tougher and tougher.

God's special training. a time to AGAPE.

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on the other hand, school has been fun [: the different module that we do everyday somehow relate to disciple class teaching. heh. like conflict management, knowing yourself and etc. is actually quite interesting [: love it.
today, we did superstition. here's a video of different supertition ppl believe in.

1. if open umbrella indoor, then ghost/spirit will follow you
2. cannot sing when cooking cause you will marry a old man
3. when eyes twitches, sth bad will happen to you

conclusion : i dont believe in superstition.
HAHAHA.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

♥

when times get tough, is friends that movivate you to move on.
i thank god i have lovely people in my life (:

Saturday, April 12, 2008

♥ webcam craze

i was excuse from prayer on friday so girlfriends went over to daphne's place. haha. initial plan was to swim but.. we ended up having fun reading old school letter, her doodle book and web cam-ing. heh. we took like 963258147 pictures can ! super alot. we just keep on clicking and clicking. almost all the pictures was so hilarious, we laugh till we drop! OMG. it was CRAZY! view daphne's blog for the pictures. i am lazy to load them. heh. oh how i love them (: (:

went for disciple class today. && mummy gave us a surprise ! she bought this really nice white 'suit' for all the WOMEN that went thur the JB course. i am indeed surprise and elated. heh heh. we learned how to mediate today, had a lot of testimonial sharing, alot of exaltation and praises, etc. at night, we had celebration for all the april babies. i had a good chat with both nat and jie minghui individually. oh, i love them. (: (:
last sunday, i actually ask nat if god paints his nails. HAHAHA. and she said 'i guess it would be the both of us doing it'. heh. i thot that was quite cool. (;

faith is a happy girl.
shanjie is feeling happy.
:D

Thursday, April 10, 2008

♥ the happy ending is YOU

nice film. nice friends. nice tears.
you guys should go watch it. this show is brilliant. i am totally in love with it. watch it with girlfriends today. daphne and i was the only two tearing away. HAHAAHAH. the daddy and daughter part was so sweet. my heart melted the moment he said ' the happy ending is YOU '. warmth just rush into my heart. man. i will keep hitting replay if it was playing on dvd. HAHA.

someone commented about mean girls. -look at daphne. hahahaha. i love reading her blog cause it never fails to make me laugh. oh yes. we found a new 'game' which we play everyday before and after school. haha. is called giraffe. heh. go figure it out. (: (:

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how many times do people actually treasure the things around them ? even if humans do, how much and how well ?
i always though i treasured the times i had with bestie but ytd proved me wrong. i was hitting bed when i suddenly realise. thou i have lovely girlfriends, wonderful classmates, favourite people, i dont have a soul mate. a best friend. there isnt any one who would understand me and still love me as who i am like what bestie did. i used to confide in her 24/7. is up to me to pick the time and place. she would be there. she will always be my listening ear. she never fails to hug me and lend me her shoulder. it was only when some internal conflict started arising within me, only then did i realise, i didnt have anyone i can talk to. i can only pretend, spread a smile, laugh real loud so no knows.

i miss you i miss you i miss you.

i seriously thot that we will never be separated. little did i know that ... the time has really come.

mayb this is a chance for our friendship to move to a greater height. mayb is really time for me to grow up and not depend on someone else. mayb God just needed me to trust him. mayb he is the best person i can ever confide in. (okay, that i know)
oh well. everyone has to go thru certain stage in life. i just happen to be in the growing up stage.

gawd. i am so not into this.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

♥ lover and friends

I LOVE MY CLASS (:
FAVOURITE BOYS. FAVOURITE GIRL. FAVOURTIE PEOPLE :D

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

♥ subway baby

first day of school was great. better than what i expected it to be. hee. my team mates was really marvellous. one of the liveliest, crappiest, noisiest one in class. HAHA. but i like the way it is. it seems like every sentence anyone contribute can make the whole team roar into laughter. that's how NOISY we were. heh. and crappy. ?
RP food is yumyum. had chicken chop and it was delicious. heh. food is so important. after school, daph and i stayed back to complete our assignment. we went to the library cafe and ate this chocolate fondue waffle. omgoodness. it was crappyshit yummy. HAHAHAH. i love melted mashmellow. heh heh. so sad vera and rebecca wasnt there with us ): we were so sad. heh. then daph and i played our fav song tgt :D to shut certain beings up. hoho.

time flies. i cant believe i am now waking up every morning to attend a POLY. gosh. i am grown up [:

Friday, April 4, 2008

♥ make me head over heel in love with you everyday

replies to tags :

miracle - HAHAHA. yeah, you told me about it during the swimming date.

danz - what about sunday ? hurhur. yes, super funny uh. from a high ranking officer somemore

becky - yes. is really nice knowing you too (: botak boys with tan skin. HAHAHAHA.

julian and donk - okay okay (: asap.
daphne - HAHAHAHA. you are so cute and blur. at thot i told you during school that day ?

johnboy - yes. but i only had one lesson. HOHO. ya! i miss my braces ):

EG - hello, the same building, same level but different class rp friend. HEH. and you got the same surname as daphne and vera. HAHAHA.

(:
i suddenly find that my blogging style sucks big time. eee.
anyw,
daphne and i love listening to nice yet not popular songs.
vera and i have the same taste when it comes to shopping.
rebecca and i are love cute boys.
HAHAHAHAHAH.
these three beauties are my poly girlfriends. heh. we happen to hang out during first day of orientation and happen to click really well. (: the thing is we barely know one another. i guess that's when chemistry play it's role (: oh well, girlfriends usually share the same thinking, like the same things, always hanging out, have a lunch table to themselves, have heart to heart talk :D and within such short time span we somewhat fulfill the ' condition ' HAHAHAH.
daphne, rebecca and i happened to end school earlier on the first day of orientation. so we waited for vera for about an hour or so. is so girlfriend-ish you get me? heh. i like the way it is. like there must always be four of us (:
during the second night of camp, i had this heart to heart session with daphne and vera. we were talking about love and some other issues till we fell asleep. i thot that was quite cute. HAHAHA.

i cant wait for school. i start to think that my school is cool. i have a bunch of wonderful girlfriends and i have two yyb peeps there who are like family members to me. i only hate the part where i have to carry a laptop to school every single day. i used to think carrying a laptop is extremely cool. like you are a class higher than everyone else. but not after trying it for a day! is so heavy to the point i could feel my muscle expanding. you know you know that kind of feeling? and having sth on your hand is just way too troublesome. very irritating uh. I SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN A LIGHTWEIGHT MODEL !! boohoo! ): alright, i shall stop whining. i am turning more and more whiny these days for whatever reason i do not know. and i hate it so i shall put a full stop to it (:

i went shopping with daphne on thursday! go read her blog. it was so hilarious. i cannot stop laughing. it was fruitful and fulfilling day (: i only remember two things that we talked about. one was about songs. the other is that we should love someone for who he/she is and not love the person only if he/she is what we wanted he/she to be. okay, i love daphne. HHAHAHAAH.

love must be express. i never knew you could find such joy in doing so. i always think it is such an embarrassing job. HAHAHAHA. so like i express my love to my beloved dearie on wednesday night. and got shocked by what i said. i never knew she was of that importance to me. heh heh. and i accompanied her to school ytd to do all the enrollment thingy. i feel so nanny can ! haha. cause i have been thur and is very familiar so like i did everything for her la. lols. then went to her place and slack, had pizza then went to church. :D i think my dearie looks perfect when she's dressed up. hoho. BIG TIME HINT !

alright, i shall end it here. ciao (:

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

♥ finally figured out you are all the same

26.03.08
went to mich's place :D love her house. she made pancake for breakfast then dolly fish and grilled chicken for lunch. yum yum (: had movie maranthon. woohoo. after a somewhat sinful day, HAHA, we went for CA. good food again (: (: i am kinda worried i might forget to fast. heh. anyw, we had ministry and god spoke thur jie eunice! he said he will woo me and captured my heart. like OH DEAR ! i like... HAHAHAHAHA.

27.03.08-29.03.08
went for orientation camp in RP. it was pretty fun (: made new friends and everything. i am so lazy to eleborate in full. and i have been re-telling the story a hundred zillion time. i am pretty sick alrdy. oh well, there is one thing you must must must know that is.. I AM SUPER CHAO TA !! heh.

30.03.08

see.. i am really chao ta !!

church was fabulous. god spoke! and i finally knew allt he answers to all my questions. (: (:

31.03.08

i went shopping with my new friend (: her name is vera.
when i was on my way to far east, it started drizzling. i was like.. oh dear, how am i suppose to get back to the mrt station after that. so i prayed for the rain to stop once i am out of far east. & indeed :D :D i was thanking god when he spoke.. ' anything for my queen. today is going to be a fruitful day for you. you will get your desired bag at a really cheap price ' at first, i thot it was my own voice talking. i thot god is all holy. shopping is not a very holy thing leh. HAHA. anyhow, i left it at the back of my mind and went to met vera. she bought me to haji lane. my first time there. the ambience is perfect but the stuff are rather costy. we soon left. then at bugis street, i really saw this bag i love, the kind i wanted and guess how much ? $10. yes, freaky $10. i nv gotten a bag this cheap before okay! and the sales person was saying they just discounted it today. at first it was selling at $20 ! then i remembered what God spoke. i cant help but to say it was discounted just for me :D see, is always cool when god is trying to woo you. HAHAHA. cmon, woo me further. i am so lovin it. hahahahaha. so whatever he said came to pass. i got all the things i needed at such low prices. like never before. everything was on sale (: woohoo. i am happy happy faith :D

01.04.08
hello april. goodbye march.
oh dear, time flies. soon, i will graduate, will be holding a guys hand, will get married, have babies and be a tai tai. and very soon, grey hair will appear, wrinkles will start surfacing and then i will be away to be with my lord. amen. HAHAHA. i am a little crazy. pardon me.
went swimming with miracle and rebecca while everyone else is in austin. BOO ! swam 20laps, chatted under the sun ( which means i am even more chao ta !! ), sauna-ed, cam-whored. happy happy (: